| BLEH AGAIN |
[08 Oct 2007|01:53pm] |
It seems I only come here when I feel....bleh! So here I am, blehing all over the place, and in your face! HAH. I've decided that I reaaaaalllllllllyyyyyyyyy need a vacation. I haven't taken one all year. Not some 4 day weekend bullcrap, but a full week+. I wanna steal my Megan and drive away to cool and creepy places. Take some photos, hang out, be creative. My mind needs some creative stimulation. It also needs relief. I think time away from work, away from warcraft, away from technology would do me good.
I goto work and my body is so lazy and tired. Lack of sleep due to Warcrack?
Maybe.
I get an average 7 hours of sleep, seems good enough to me. I keep falling deeper into the black hole known as the life sucking World of Warcraft. Megan works nights more often, and that only results to me sitting around the house and playiing. What else can you do with no money and lots of time? It could be worse, I could be bored. Being bored makes me wanna gouge my eyeballs out. So it would be worse.
Sorry for this lame journal. Other people post about real life problems and situations that deem worthyness of real responses and actions. My biggest problems in life involve playing to much of a video game and not taking a vacation. Hardly seem worth writing about. Or better yet, you reading about. If I could give you your 5 minutes back, I would.
Maybe this could redeem my journal to some shred of respect. I've been taking photos lately and enjoying the results:
Dice Photoshoot
Malice Photoshoot
I'm finally happy with some photos I took. I even printed one of dice and framed it.
Well back to work....till the next time i'm blehing!
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| How to World of Warcraft and Bioshock for 850 bucks |
[31 Aug 2007|03:08pm] |
I had have some people ask what I did to building my gaming computer for 850 bucks. I run max settings on World of Warcraft, BIOSHOCK (yes Bioshock), and Half Life 2.
I was on a budget, so I did it with 850 bucks and some research. Here is the components needed to complete your Ransack Gaming Tower.
Dell Inspirion 531
Cost: $650
Using the link below, you can get a simple Inspirion 531 tower, with a 19" Flat Screen monitor. I added a 4400 Processor and 2GIGs of ram. The processor isn't necessary, but the 2GIGS of ram is. BE SURE TO UPGRADE THE RAM!!!
http://configure.us.dell.com/dellstore/config.aspx?c=us&cs=19&l=en&oc=DDCWEA2&s=dhs
MSI NX7900GS-T2D512E-OC GeForce 7900GS 512MB 256-bit GDDR3 PCI Express x16 SLI
Cost: $150
After EXTENSIVE research, I found this video card to be the best of the best of its class. The class being under 200 bucks. This bad boy does it all with no problem. Down side is, when paired with the 531, the 531 does not have enough to power to power the 7900. But it is easily solved with the 3rd item below.
http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16814127277R&Tpk=MSI%2b7900GS
Thermatake Video Card Power Supply
Cost: $55
This cool device gives the Video Card directly 250W of power! Awesome! You can now power that video card. Its great because you can use it later on other systems. It also features the ability to turn on and off with the system. It only draws power when needed also! So no wasting your electricity bill!
http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16817153037
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| BUZZZZ |
[27 Aug 2007|01:27pm] |
So I just beat BioShock. Cool game. I give it a 8/10.
( No Spoiler, but don't read if you don't wanna know anything about Bioshock ending )
BBUUUZZZZZ is how I feel, I don't know why. I need a vacation. I need to get away from my computer and do something. Warcrack has me sucked in so bad, that I can't stop. BLEH. ITS HORRIBLE, but yet I enjoy it. meh. There's my addiction speaking again. I need to get away. Megan goes on break soon, hopefully we can run away.
Comic Con in sac is this weekend. Stoked to go out and promote Destroy Inc. I'm trying to think of more cool things to bring, cause I want a good presentation. Bit nervous, cause i'm low on cash, and that makes hard to front for stuff. Luckily, I can create my own t-shirts now, and I can make them as they come. So its really low overhead.
meh. all I wanna put in here for now.
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| Last weekend |
[02 Jul 2007|10:30am] |
ahhh, what a weekend. Was a pretty great, well rounded, eventful, great end to a month of dieting and fasting. Booze, BBQ, paintball, movies, friends, partying, sushi, we did it all this weekend. It was really nice. Food never tasted so good. Mmm. I'm only up 8 pounds since the final weigh in. Which is really good. 4-5 pounds was water weight (I didn't drink anything a day before weigh in) so about 3-4 pounds of weight gaining back from a huge weekend. I feel its acceptable gain. Now to a steady diet. Gonna get down to a lean, sexy machine. I'll have to fight the ladies off with a stick. Well probably not, the short one is pretty fierce. I heard she once stabbed a ninja. And shotgunned a zombie. :P
PB Pix from this weekend (thanks alot Meaux)
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| Final Day |
[29 Jun 2007|09:42am] |
Well i've lost 32 pounds. I haven't eaten or drinkin in a day. This fucking apple im eating now has tasted so good.
Regards to the comp, I lost. Kellen in some sort of act of god, lost 8 pounds in one night pushing his percentage 2% higher then mine. fuck. 600 bucks, so close, but not ssoooo far. I needed the damn money.
oh well. I'm "healther" and look better everyone says. I guess in the long run I will feel better about that, but for now, I'm frustrated. BLAH.
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| Day 24 |
[28 Jun 2007|10:34am] |
28 lbs
Right now i'm winning.
Well see if it stays that way.
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| Day 22 |
[26 Jun 2007|04:30pm] |
25 pounds.
SNAPS. I'M JUST OWNING.
fuck i'm hungry
juice fasting for the LOSE
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| Day 21 |
[25 Jun 2007|05:51pm] |
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23 pounds and still at it. Hmmm more then 1 lb a day.
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| and... |
[22 Jun 2007|09:36am] |
I'm at 19.5 loss.
Still dropping...time I burn more. Next week is going to be harsh. Liquid diet!
I'm so excited....
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| 9 Days later |
[21 Jun 2007|10:19am] |
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I'm at 18 pound loss so far. Need to really crank it into gear to win this office contest. I've lost the most, but percentage wise, about 2nd.
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| Week 1 |
[12 Jun 2007|02:58pm] |
Crazy start to this diet..
12 pounds in one week.
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| Enough of this LOWER GAS PRICE crap... |
[16 May 2007|01:50pm] |
I'm tired of reading/hearing about all these plans to reduce the cost of gas. None of them will work. Period. End of Story. In comparison to countries around the world, we pay really low prices compared to others.
The don't buy gas for a day plan simply doesn't work. Gas at gas stations have already been bought by the gas station it self. All your doing is affecting that particular station, and in reality, everyone just filled up or filled after that day anyways. Having no effect on it.
Don't buy gas from one company? That will have ZERO affect also. Why? Say for example, you boycott Exxon. If they don't sell its gas to you, they will sell it to Mobil, because Mobil's demand for gas will dramatically increase. If you think that Exxon will slowly lose out that way, guess what, they won't. They will sell it to Mobil for whatever price because they need to get the demand.
Gas prices are "high" because of supply and demand. More and more cars get on the road everyday, and more and more need gas. Especially you V8s everywhere. Until you complete reduce the WHOLE demand for gas, then and only then it could possible go down. You can lower a price on a item if you just buying it from some where else. The demand just get EVEN higher in that section.
You want a solution for saving money at the pump? BIKE to work. Find means of alternative transportation. Take public transit. Car pool. Don't drive a V8. The demand for gas will never go down, and its impossible to try and stop it. Find your own personal ways to save money, and then only then, will you save cash. If your unhappy with the amount you pay for gas, then you should be unhappy will your lifestyle. I don't wanna hear "ooh I have to commute 50 miles to work". Well don't drive you damn V8 SUV monster truck to work. Obviously you can't afford your lifestyle if your complaining about gas.
Driving is a LUXURY and PRIVLEDGE, not a right.
In the end, you can't stop it. Sorry. So stop trying to.
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| YEY FINALLY |
[09 May 2007|05:47pm] |
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I signed the lease to my new apartment in Pleasanton! YEY! So excited! It's got everything we wanted!!!! Now I got 1 1/2 weeks to pack up. I'm glad it's finally here, and that soon enough, i'll take one more step forward in this silly game called life.
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| *Ding* You gain 1 point to life |
[02 May 2007|01:17pm] |
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Ahhh, few weeks from now, I'm going to *ding*. For those non-WoW players, that means level up. When I said level I life, I mean, i've decided to move out and get my own place. WHAT?!?! Your still living at home? YES I AM. Deal with it. After a number of attempts to move out with people and waiting for getting paid enough, I've decided to do it. So 2-3 weeks from now I will step forward in life. It's a weird feeling.
The best best part of moving out, is that I'm doing it with my wonderful girlfriend. Ah, how sweet it will be to spend my days with her now. I'm beyond in love with her, and doing this is really stepping it up in the relationship. I look forward to a whole new worlds of things with her. Being able to share even more time. Very excited.
Its nice, to be able to make enough money to support me and her. No matter how much she hates it (me supporting her), I love to do it for her. One day she will accept it! MWHAHA.
Don't worry, you will one day hit your goal ;)
To my friends, call me! It will be great to have people come hang out. Definitely will be doing BBQs, LANs, and whatever!
OOOOO YA
Another thing. If any of you know me, you know that this is EPIC
Yep, shaved it all off for moustashe may. Now I just gotta grow a better stash then anyone at work.
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| Letting go... |
[18 Apr 2007|01:23pm] |
Ahhh the age old dilemma that probably dates back to times we can’t even realize. The dilemma of letting go. Everyone has encountered this situation, and most deal with it on a daily basis. Letting go of things. Some realize they need to, some don’t realize they need to. I’ve faced this problem oh so many times. From collecting crap to EX’s, I’ve done it all.
I’ve recently decided to start letting go of my young single man style of this, and gave away random girl crap. Its hard to just give/throw away some stuff just cause I spent so damn much money on it. I guess that’s why so many ppl don’t let go. Investment. Weither it be time or money, you invested some part of you in something, and you just can’t let go. I did that for a girl once, I should have let go of her, but she let go of me, in turn around made it easy to let go and forget. I don’t regret that day. I think if you ‘need’ to let go or ‘feel’ you need to let go, mostly likely YOU NEED TO LET GO.
What about the cases where you don’t even realize it? Look around you and see if anything or anyone around you is affected by something. Chances are its because your holding on to something. They see you need to let go, but you don’t realize it. If you encounter some situation and don’t know why, just stop, and ask yourself, “Is what I’m doing worth it? “
I sometimes ponder why I didn’t let go in some situations. It didn’t benefit me by staying or holding on. I gained no advantages, angles, perks or anything by just going. That faith, that devotion could be used so much more efficiently then this.
I guess i’m saying, no matter how big or small it is, let go. EX’s, friends, collections, bad habits, good habits, girls, guys, money, whatever. If it affects the world around you, just let go. I assure you, things will only get better.
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| New Destroy Inc Art!!! ( Deviant Art PPL look!) |
[12 Apr 2007|10:48am] |
I worked on a new piece for my future release of something special for destroy inc!
You can check out the art below, and if you have deviant art, you can comment and FAVORITE my piece! Looking for some fav's today to boost it up on the popular scale to get more attention, and there for bringing more ppl to destroy! If you like it and fav me, I truly appreciate it!
Deviantion
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| corolla part II |
[09 Apr 2007|03:08pm] |
I posted that big post about my car, and I took some new pix...just wanted to throw them up.
Yes, I have pink rims. Why? Cause I promise you won't see anything else like it on the road.
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| Last Night... |
[06 Apr 2007|11:09am] |
Driving home from Megan's house usually consists of me turning on 98 Rock, and listening to the radio all the way home.
Last night, sitting in my corolla, I was waiting at the stop light to turn left onto Highway 4. As I accelerated and moved forward, my car reached out and talk to me. The cool night must have been making it feel good, cause it flowed smoothly and hummed nicely in the dead of night. Once in a great while the car speaks out and I turn off the radio and listen to it speak as we cruise on home. Not in a literal matter, but just the sound of the muffler. The wind gliding over the car. The tires pressing against the tar street.
It an interesting feeling I have with my car. I feel like sometimes I become totally in tune with it, and it becomes a extension of my own self. Something I feel that a old, mechanical car can only give you. Today, all these electronics you really lose the feeling of a car. Everything works for you, while in a old mechanical car, you become attuned to its sounds, its responses, its everything. I'm sure most don't feel this way, and the ones that they do, probably think they are, but truly aren't. Maybe i'm biased, but I feel cars now a days are just advanced and leave no room for the pleasure of driving. Best way to describe this is, you know how theres blow up pools. You can get that a little hand pump one, work away to blow up that pool. And then theres electronic pumps, where you plug in, sit back, and wait for it to finish. Both get the job done, one requires you to interact with the device through the whole process. And that process, for me at least, gives me more a sense of accomplishment. How that I apply that to driving is, with a old mechanical car, I interacting, working to complete its journey, and cars nowadays, just sit back and let it drive for you. I just don't think you can become close to your car like I can.
I want to buy a new car next year, and truthfully, it scares me kind of. It will have all these fancy electronics and what not. I won't have that feeling of attunement, and theres so much crap going on with it, if it breaks, I wouldn't be able to fix it. With a old mechanical car, if something breaks, you just listen to what the car says, and BAM you know whats up. New cars, so much electronic bullshit, you will get lost. So i'm still debating on getting that new car. I really really want a new Toyota truck. I'll probably get one to, but just will have to get use to its lack of connection to me. But hey, I guess it will be nice having all the luxuries right? Eh not really. Every car i've owned, never has luxuries. I enjoy it more that way. OH well, WELL SEE!
Why am I writing this, shit I don't know. Maybe someone will read out there and understand what driving means to me. Most will probably think I'm a whack job for having a relationship with my car. Maybe some might be even jealous that I can get in my car, drive home, and for some reason, enjoy just the fact i'm driving. That I get pleasure from just going forward in the machine.
I used to own a 96 civic. Not a complicated car, but had its qwarks. Doesn't depends on alot of electronics, but it has it good share of it. Now that I think about it, I don't know if I could enjoy it as much as I enjoy this old corolla. Maybe I won't ever buy a new car. Just fix up old beaters. I happy that Megan is wonderful woman, and doesn't care what car I drive...unlike some past people in my life. Makes driving that car more enjoyable because the one I love and care about the most, also loves me, no matter what piecer I roll up in, she will continue to love me.
If you truly are a car person. Buy a old old car, fix it up. Get that sense of accomplishment. Find a clear day. Roll both windows down. Throw on some shades, and just cruise. That car will bring the world to you more then any car nowadays. You will feel your surroundings more, and just maybe you can enjoy it like me. Oh yea, download the song "Little Green Bag" by the Goerge Baker Selection. My favorite cruising song.
(Sorry if I miss spelled something, or whatever. I can be horrible when I ramble on like this.)
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| Hmmmm |
[12 Jan 2007|02:29pm] |
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Ever feel like your not good at anything. You look at some people and they know, I'm good at this. It can be music, art, sports or 1 handed hand stands in a pool full of Jello. At least they are good at something. I sometimes question what is it that I'm exactly good at. I've done so many things, and yet still feel that I'm not good enough. I know your suppose to practice and you can be good, but at what point do you give up? What if your not great at anything and just good at a bunch? Is that worth it? You can fix cars, play sports, draw, play music, but there's always someone better at each one, and your rendered invalid. Is there something out there looking for someone who can do it all, but not great? What I would do to trade few things I'm good at for one great thing. "Hey, maybe you haven't found what your good at yet?" Maybe, but by now I know what I like to do, and why would I wanna be great at something I don't like to do. You know? If that last blurb many any sense. I suppose I could find something I enjoy and not know it yet. But *sigh* I hate searching. I suppose being good at alot of things could have its advantages... I can create art/things needed for everyday life. Decorating or whatever comes along in my life. I can fix cars. I can fix just about anything around the house or life. Play sports when needed, or fill in a position in a online video games, and not totally get destroyed. Hmm. I don't know still. It still would be nice to hear, "damn he's great at that". *Shrug*. I've pretty much accepted my own ability to do things. I suppose I can be one of those that works long and hard enough to be great at something. But damn, so much time. BLEH. Till then...
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